Page 628 - Bodhayanti Parasparam Vol 6

Bodhayanti Parasparam Vol 6
Great Master in true sense and become a ‘Living Dead' yourself”.
The feeling of surrender should not be cultivated by forced and mechanical means. It must develop automatically without the least strain or pressure. Even if a semblance of remembrance of the knowledge of surrender is retained it is not a true form of surrender. To live in a state of consciousness that is termed as living dead one needs to live where the Master put it as ‘the whole habitation of desires get turned into desolate ruin, and the cup of the besmeared individuality is broken up so as to be incapable of holding anything in it’. (SDG.156).
There should be a total annihilation of self. This is one thing most people fear. If we go further as to what is being annihilated, it is not the existence that dies, but it is the sense of separation that dissolves. This annihilation of self is the basis of Vairagya and that alone enables us to live as living dead. There is a peculiar notion amongst us that a person who is a living dead will not have any fear of death. I beg to differ. The concept of death is entirely different from the idea of living dead and has to be dealt with separately. Relationships cease and one is not touched by pleasure, pain, greed, attachment, pride etc but still the fear of death continues. Such persons live and yet do not. They do their duty but never get soiled by it.
The concept of effacing oneself so that he lives as a living dead can be best exemplified by the case of Pujya Dr. K.C. Varadachari and this is amply reflected in the letters of Pujya Babuji Maharaj to Dr. K.C.V wherein he states "The joy in being Nothing in me" is of course a thing of great merit and must be grasped in true sense by a real seeker. But my view goes further on over the ideas of 'joyless joy in being nothing as mine or mine as nothing'.
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