Page 722 - Bodhayanti Parasparam Vol 6

Bodhayanti Parasparam Vol 6
In a reasonably successful person there is a large area of self-satisfaction but when difficulties and miseries engulf him there develops an area where there is a crack in the door of the ego. And it is through that crack alone does the bright light come and it is not at all pleasant in the beginning. Slowly when the cracks increase and more light starts pouring in through the crevices in the ego we start learning to look for the same with eagerness. We learn that the light is really inviting us to find our way out and we find the doors of the ego are now open to go yonder. This is one of the most important lesson in sadhana.
During our meditations all the dirt and unwholesome ideas and desires are basically thrown up. Instead of keeping quiet we seem to run in search of our broom to sweep them away.
When the Master says that we should treat all thoughts as uninvited guests He is asking us to develop tolerance to our own mistakes and follies which fry up through the crevices of the ego structure during meditation.
When pain is understood as the means to develop humility which in turn makes us remember our Master as long as pain persists it becomes something we earnestly seek for. Only then it gets treated as a gift from God.
If our meditations are disturbing it is really helping us to search for reality. We should not try to perpetuate the blissful or peaceful condition. Thus we may have to relate to the pain even in the bliss. This is the call for the condition of non peace –peace the Master talks so much about.
Spiritual life can easily become imbalanced and fixated at a certain point if the bright aspect of Truth or
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