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BODHAYANTI PARASPARAM - VOL 9
why all of a sudden I who was an object of love was being looked down upon because I was not scoring well in my school examinations. Good boy I was for purposes of all errands but I felt I was not treated as well as my other siblings and cousins. That feeling led me very early to seek succour from the one true source of love namely God who or whatever that might be.
As a resident of a temple town it was a common sight for me to see many persons doing japa or meditation. I asked an elder whether I can also do that and he said to me to sit in a quiet place and repeat Ram mentally as long as I can and that would lead me to other methods gradually. This practice enabled me to get in touch with elders who meditate regularly and most of them doing Gayathri japa. But there was always something in them I found to be rigid dogma call it orthodox if necessary. The environment of my town offered little chance to be totally unaffected by such dogmas and superstitions of Religions. Yet I decided very early to stay clear of such organised religions and also to look for better ways of expanding consciousness that do not take lifetimes to achieve the goal that is elusive for understanding. What I had learned from the stories of Lord Krishna is the power or unalloyed
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