Page 54 - Bodhayanti Parasparam Vol 9

BODHAYANTI PARASPARAM - VOL 9
“’I’ consciousness remains far and near, and it disappears also, if we do our abhyas devotedly.” I awareness, ‘I’ consciousness, Ahamta. That is I am experiencing something. I am having this, I am not having that, is the ‘I’ consciousness. This should not be confused with the concept of ego. That is why immediately next sentence he says “There is a common error almost everywhere, that they think `I' as an enemy.” Here he uses the word ‘I’ earlier he uses the word ‘I’ consciousness please note the difference. ‘I’ consciousness is “Ahamta”. “I” is ego, identity, individuality. It is bound to be there. Expecting something for me is ‘I’ consciousness including the ecstatic state of bliss during meditation. Is it not true Sir that you said this morning that “Thou art the ocean of Bliss” should I not experience it? Yes, he is an ocean of Bliss, you need not experience that. If he wants to give you that experience he will give you, if he does not want to
give you he will not give you. You have no business to expect that. That expectancy is the problem, that is the ‘I’ consciousness. I hope you understand what I am trying to tell here a subtle difference between ‘I’ consciousness and ‘I’, a common error of all philosophy students and pseudo philosophy
students. ‘I’ is different from ‘I consciousness’. I 42