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thought of anger comes in the heart, it sets the body on fire from top to toe. When the emotions of sorrow come, the whole body becomes useless and dull and there is no inclination for conversation.There is neither interest in hearing nor telling. There is a flow of tears from the eyes. The lips have a cold sigh. If any artist comes at that time, he draws a picture of his misery. If a poet dares, he can show in his words a picture of his misery. But this is difficult. There was no talk but only thought and thought. Thought has changed the condition and he has become a different man. This misery of thought, this mental trouble, this trouble of will is called Aadhyatmic misery and where is a person who can refuse assertively its existence.
Above miseries are certainly dreadful but this is more dreadful than them. Those two miseries are related to the external world, but this is related to the internal world. They are relatively away, but this is near. Therefore man is in more trouble with this. The mental misery is fit for more consideration. This only keeps us in a condition of struggle/ mental pull. We go some time up and some time down. It is like a pendulum which keeps on swinging day and night. Chitta Vritties will be always swinging and are not at rest even for a moment. This mental misery is worst than all the miseries, more dreadful and Aadhidaivik and Aadhibhautic can not compete with it. They can not even be a Pasang for it. This itself will kill you and produce flame inside and keeps on burning the flesh and bones. This is a double edged knife which tears the liver/heart. The effect of other miseries is partial, but its colour affects every nerve. You axe your own leg and make a funeral pyre.
Aadhidaivik and Aadhibautik miseries have one method. This behaves in two ways. Two types of influence come from out side and get inside us. Aadhyatmik misery, itself creates poison and collects the material from out side to create misery. For example; one person has developed bad thoughts, heart has become life less. Now he started quarrelling with other person, abused him, manhandled him. Now thousands of miseries from out side started attacking him. Whoever is coming started fighting. Blood becomes defective, fighting with swords, put in the prisons, there will be court case. Money is wasted and poverty encircles him. There is fire on all sides. You must have heard that there is attraction between similar things. This appears to be Divine rule. Therefore he gives place to bad thoughts, which are scattered in the atmosphere, in his heart unknowingly. Thousands and crores of bad things are generated in by his mind, word and deed and he becomes evil incarnate in the world. One who indulges in gambling, will definitely speaks lie, will surely become dishonest. One who is dishonest, will certainly steal. He becomes a culprit of violence and hurting other people’s heart and in whom there is violence, becomes a big sinner, because violence is a big sin. This order will continue like this for ever.