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definition God’s mind is something that you will never know lest you become God yourself. Nothing but one of dependency trying to say yes, I am here. You are aware still, awareness of dependency is still there. Saranatva is gone. Though saranatva is a next knot to 3rd, the 4th one saranatva is gone, confidence that I have been accepted also is gone but dependency is continuing because these two by the time we cross the 5th knot surrender has lost its value, by the time we reach the chit lake we have already lost even the remaining remnants of the prapannagati also which is only a reflection of the surrender. Saranagati is lost, so surrender is not the primary thing there.
Devotion, it is our duty to be devoted, that is the feeling that you get. Why should you be devoted? So that I may get some promotion, no, so that my daughters marriage is performed, no, it is my duty to be devoted, it is our primary duty to be devoted is the awareness of consciousness there. You move on, you move on further then this feeling gets rarified, all of a sudden you are faced with certain amount of splendour. Splendour is one of the difficult words to translate into our language. I have been struggling, any one of you can help me in this, splendour, they are all the origins of the Being itself. Now coming from the Base, suppose we look at the Reality per se, it is of the nature of the consciousness, you have been told. That consciousness has become matter much later, first it expressed, it came out, it came out with multiple colors. Now multiple colors are only gross reflections of the seven colors, the seven rays are out each one giving us a particular hue of consciousness. The experiments on the colors and the types of consciousness variations have been done, they have no value here because you don’t see it with that intensity. There is a faint reflection of that feeling, all these things moves on, how it will be, it will be very difficult for me to say now but I can tell you one thing - happiness, joy, bliss, splendor put together all of them, that is the feeling you get there, it is impossible to describe. It doesn’t end there, the consciousness still is there, the sakshi is still there, reflective consciousness is not there to this extent, but is still there, that also ceases and I am told that we may have to swim there forever. I do not know because I have not seen forever. Up to this I have struggled, something beyond this I will not be in a position to. So, with these few words, I share with you the stages of progress that are possible for you and I want all of you to have it.