Page 109 - Three Truths - Trillion Doubts - Volume -II
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10th Commandment:
1. Praying to Master to keep me in a good office, social environment as that may help to keep the goal always in front.
On your own admission your compliance is not upto the expectation of a good sadhaka. Prayer for anything other than the ultimate is cheap and vulgar. Please read the commentary on the commandments of the Master carefully and learn how to pray. For begging no Sadhana is required. You seek a good office, a social environment (what that means you alone should know). Your linking them with the goal of Natural Path is irresponsible and untenable understanding of the system.
2. I need to get more closer to the Master at this hour of "Bed Time Prayers". Though I do repent for the wrongs committed and beg forgiveness, the mood is yet to get supplicant. The resolve not to allow repetition of the same is not resolute enough.
It is good you understand the need to pray. There is no limit to prayer and humility.
3. Sometimes it becomes a rather hurried affair. Requisite supplicant mood does not engulf me many a times.
Try to be in the state of prayer as long as possible. Supplicancy and submissiveness develops as we practice.
4. I feel my deficiencies very bare. Ego, intolerance towards people and resentment to situations, thought tending to judge others and physical indiscipline are things which trouble me internally. The only advantage I see is at bedtime prayer there are enough reasons to feel low and repentful and pray. Whatever be my limitations, I feel submission to Him for His cause should be the continuous goal. I feel solace and joy in remembering Him thus.
Try to see the positive side of all issues.
5. Intensity of feeling of repentence is not same and only on few days I feel

























































































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