Page 140 - Three Truths - Trillion Doubts - Volume -II

5. During Morning meditations, felt nothingness on some days and calmness on other days.
There is enormous difference between Torpor and Nothingness. Usage of words needs to be done carefully.
6. Doing regularly but have some instability of posture. Also lot of day to day thoughts occur.
As far posture do not bother; over a period of time it gets settled with certain amount of will. Regarding thoughts annihilation of thoughts is not our aim. Please do read again Master’s article on control of mind and concentration.
7. Before attending the Basant celebrations, I was in a state of complacency and sadhana was poor, cleaning was almost nil. My feeling was, whenever I close my eyes and observe my condition, it was calm and hence the complacent feeling. Also some specific states of consciousness were questioning the existence of Divinity and Master.
They are ofcourse states of consciousness but that is called Mooda.
8. My stupid mind used to succumb to a small negative thought so quickly but failed many times to grasp the many positive thoughts that came to my mind. My precious time got wasted in worrying about the many lapses rather than taking positive steps to correct myself and become regular. I started watching TV, reading and seeing trash and did not have interest or involvement in anything.
Your involvement even as you understand is to behave like an elephant which after having had a good shower likes to put all the rubbish on its head and body. If we do not control our thoughts and habits routine sadhana will be of no use. Avoiding those that are not conducive to our goal is a must and this principle should be strictly followed.
More on Control of Mind:
1. One word about Dharana. During sadhana when our mind is focused on one idea or thing steadily it is called Dharana and this state precedes the state of Dhyana or meditation which ultimately culminates in Samadhi.