Page 66 - Three Truths - Trillion Doubts - Volume -II

much of service yet to be done at the feet of the Rev Master!
I do my duty even as you do yours. Neither of us work alone. Master is with us always. I am to clarify that so many states are there for which there can be no words to express. Assimilation of conditions take time and while restlessness is acceptable the attitude of impatience is not. Cleaning is a slow and tedious affair where both the trainer and the aspirant have to work hard keeping absolute faith in the Master.
57. Surely there was a need for cleaning: 8 weeks without sitting since the introduction.
It is not the 8 weeks gap that is the reason for cleaning but the accumulation of samskaras as we call which may be treated as impressions in the sub conscious and unconscious planes in our psyche that requires cleaning. It is a long drawn process taking quite a few years before the load shedding is complete. Therefore cleaning the system according to the methods of the Master is paramount if we want to progress in this path.
58. I did experience clearly lightness that comes in the wake of the cleaning. I found that even after a good cleaning session the next day morning meditation can be non-centered or non-oriented.
That is very much the truth.
59. Sometimes, I suffer from feeling of being rewarded/ desire for recognition. honestly want to get rid of this obnoxious feeling by the grace of Master and your help.
What is the context in which you seek reward? Your perception of your own efficiency or merit? The feeling as you say is obnoxious but what has the Master to do or this humble self? You attend to cleaning properly and over a period of time you may get rid off this unqualified desire for reward. Deserve and the reward automatically comes.
More on Cleaning:
1. Attend to cleaning adopting the method of ocean of bliss and keeping in view that it is the Master who is the ocean of bliss and is granting you purity. Purity knows no fear or favour. Learn to love and seek Truth and all blemishes get