Page 357 - Bodhayanti Parasparam Vol 6

Remembrance of everything should merge into the Remembrance of One – the Ultimate
- the thoughts could also be with regard to seeking love, sympathy, attention
- thoughts of being the agent to bringing
happiness to the people concerning us
etc
In these thought patterns the mind literally takes its wings and we feel no boredom or tiresome ness. I usually felt the whole process quite rejuvenating (active mind) but as a sadhaka who is committed to the Master, I found great difficulty in switching the mode of the mind from the self glory to the remembrance of the Master. During these times the mind was active or rajasic in nature. Even the attempts to do cleaning are difficult as the mind is overpowered by these thoughts and it is quite active. I have learnt and continue to learn that we should never allow the mind take off in the first place and try to divert it by our alertness.
c) Worries, afflictions and other Mundane preoccupations: Sometimes when we have some impending work either at office or at home, the mind is pre occupied with it till the task is completed. This is also true in case of a physical affliction of not only self but also of the near and dear ones. I have quite often felt while attending to some office work, the whole thought content is filled with it. But the state of mind would become calm and light and the remembrance of the Master is spontaneous immediately after the work is over.
On analysis I have found that when we take up the responsibility of all the work on your head and fail to understand our limitations or our role, then this
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