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Bodhayanti Parasparam Vol 6
problem is acute. This is sheer ego in action though outwardly we give explanations of commitment, sincerity etc. But the inner motives are wanting to succeed and establish our competence coupled with an underlying fear of failure. At these times I have not only lost sleep but also the ability to meditate. I am learning to deal with such situations by yielding to the Master and offering the fruits of the work to the Master. Though we are asked to understand that he is the doer which I feel quite difficult as there is not only the act of the performance but also there is an awareness of the performance.
d) Doership, knowership and Enjoyership are the different facets of the ego which we have to overcome through our remembrance. I feel the conscious remembrance will not help in this regard and it may affect our performance of the activity but the remembrance has to be really be sub conscious so that we start remembering the Master after the work is over. But for that we have to start the work by remembering him. This, I think we should assiduously practice. In this regard, I would like to recall a small experience,” I heard one abhyasi sharing his feelings about remembrance that every day he remembered the purity aspect while taking a bath. This I tried to implement, but I found it quite difficult to begin with but with conscious awareness I slowly imbibed it and now the thought of purity is naturally remembered while taking a bath”
Conclusion: After many years of practice in the natural path, an awareness that has come about naturally is that the thought is yoked to the Master on a more continual basis. The mind is tending to think or remember Him.
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