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Bodhayanti Parasparam Vol 6
desires for possession and enjoyment. During such times, we enjoy reading such books, magazines, news papers etc which we may reject to even look at them when we feel certain amount of purity after out meditation or cleaning. Similarly we also derive enjoyment and pleasure in watching TV’s, movies etc. The indulgences could be only with our senses and our involvement in it but this usually leads to a state of laziness. Laziness in the context that we find disinclination to meditation. This has been my experience and at times I used to carry on with it especially watching TV till I felt nausea. This kind of thing is like a trap and addiction which is no bad than other addictions to nicotine, alcohol etc. I feel addiction is some kind of a habit pattern where we find no freedom to act otherwise. If we are able to turn our attention to our Master and create a craving for the Master, then immediately I felt certain amount of purity and the thought gets diverted from the worldly enjoyments and his presence is felt in the heart. Even if I was trapped in a movie, if I were able to link some incident or event of the movie with the Master, then immediately I felt purity and moved away from the movie. This has happened many times and in many situations.
b) Self Love: But I have observed that when the thought is linked with self glory or imagination of our greatness which deal with
- appreciation by somebody, pat by somebody - an achievement which is unique and also not
achieved by somebody else
- imagining our selves getting some awards,
rewards, position of power, positions of leadership
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