Page 163 - Complete Works of Dr. KCV Volume 1

have never experienced this aspect. We are actually seeing that the Ultimate is beyond both vidya and avidya, beyond usual terms of subject and object and knowledge. And it can only be known by your merging yourself in it, becoming one with it. By standing out of it, you may see a bit here and a bit there but it is externality. Now, to get back to this original condition of Reality is undoubtedly a kind of leaving all our philosophical attempts or scientific attempts to know Reality even in the best objective point of view. So you have to go beyond science and beyond philosophy. And this experience is available and possible. That is why our people spoke about vision or Darshan of knowing God. Firstly to know and be merging yourself in that vastness with a feeling that you may be nonexisting. What will happen to the drop of water that falls into the ocean back again? The drop may be complaining that it will be lost once and for all just as I find myself complaining if I am in the mass of human beings, I will be lost in them. So, even if I colour myself with a special kind of dress, black or white or red, it does not matter. I will be lost. Even the colours would be washed out in the sea of beings. So also when we merge into the ocean of beings we will be lost. Are you prepared for that? Our knowledge consists in holding on to this ego, identity and so externally individuality develops. When we lose our individuality and merge ourselves in that vast ocean, we get the real intuition of Reality. It is not always knowledge. What should it be called? Master calls it Complete Ignorance.
I wish I could devise another word. But then, every word I thought in the matter has already been given a bad name, a bad meaning. I think no word is used for realization of Complete Ignorance. It seems to me, after all, it is very nice to call it by very bad name, because that is what makes the people shudder at as Master puts it.
The Upanishads say "Asatho Ma Sadgamaya". It is a very big statement. We go from unreality to Reality. And "Thama So Ma Jyotirgamaya" - we go from darkness to light. Now, we are not going towards light. Light is not our goal. We go beyond both darkness and light.
"Na Thatra Suryo Bhati Na Sasanko