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THREE TRUTHS – TRILLION DOUBTS
forsake his sins, cast them out of his mind, and resolve in his heart to sin no more Please also note that Prayer is not asking for what you think you want, but asking to be changed in ways you can't imagine.
11. In the month of September, I am observing restlessness, which is different from what I used to feel earlier. This ends up in prayer, all the time. Only after the prayer, it subsides.
Very few understand the dynamics of repentance. It is a war within ; and it is felt as restlessness either consciously or unconsciously in which case it is like being uneasy. But that is the foundation of real prayer.
12. There is a very good improvement with regard to 10th commandment. But I am not able to consistently get into the real mode of repentance. On an average, I am able to do prayer 2-3 days in a week in a most effective manner but on other days though it is not routine but not as effective as it should be.
Repentance is really killing our ego and no one likes to do it and you are not an exception. That you are 115