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able to do it to your satisfaction for half the week is a matter of real success. If you are conscious of the lapses then seeking forgiveness arises. That itself is a big exercise.
13. There is an inner feeling in the heart that I should live in the consciousness of the Master and surrender to His will rather than outward show. May I be granted more and more supplicancy and humility towards Masters?
Humility is not granted but is something that develops the more we see our flaws and feel His forgiving such lapses. Similar is the position of supplicancy. Do not expect those things to be granted which you need to acquire. That is not correct sadhana. Our effort should be there and in the back drop there are always His blessings.
14. During 2nd week of the month I was feeling lot of repentance for accumulating so much grossness and leaving the homeland. Also there was lot of cry with it.
The repentance for having left the homeland is among the last ones. Before that an honest and pious mind feels repentant for many lapses due to
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