Page 103 - Three Truths - Trillion Doubts - Volume -II

5th Commandment:
1. In this period when I suffered bouts of illness I was very happy that Master gave me an opportunity to cleanse myself thru these illnesses. When I could not sit for a long time for any puja I was reminded of you. Despite your severe health condition you always were serving others but even for viral fevers I excused myself from Sadhana and satsangh. I hope that at least for a day I could rise to the level of courage and faith that you have.
Surely that will be so. It is all a matter of priorities and will to abide by the will of Master. You have those qualities in you and they will mature further.
2. At one instance in hospital during my wife’s delivery I raised my voice in anger on a clerk and later regretted for doing so. In another instance in my office I learnt that a senior director has instructed his staff not to help me lest I get credit for work. I missed that opportunity to treat it as a gift instead I brooded on it for long time.
That is a good feeling and may it improve further. Instead of brooding it will be wise to yield to the Master.
3. Miseries undergone due to circumstances are not bothering. But the process of overcoming it, working with others who are causing it, is disturbing. When others think from their point of view only, it is disturbing.
We need not necessarily be on the right side and no one causes miseries; they are our own creation. Read the commentary on the commandment well.
4. I was put to test in this regards recently when I had terrible tooth ache but I genuinely took it as a divine blessing and it stopped bothering me thereafter. I am also improving on the aspect of being truthful.
It is good that you developed the habit of accepting miseries in life. But being truthful has a different meaning in this system.
5. I have quite a few fears. Some situations I panicked and considered them as misery. How much ever I tried I couldn’t accept everything as God’s