Page 11 - Three Truths - Trillion Doubts - Volume -II

5. I used to think highly about people who snore or get completely lost while in meditation and yearn for such meditations. I am at ease even if I have 100% awareness during meditation. Of late the timings have slipped. So far during meditations I have not perceived any deeply buried thought or thought related to distant past. Almost all the time the thoughts are related to office work, the apartments or property I am buying, and domestic events. I can identify “thoughts” but I am still poor at identifying the “feelings” at that time.
A thought when emotionally tinged becomes a feeling. That you have been clearing off your stored impressions is proved by the fact you are aware of only the recent happenings. But do not think you will not get the old thoughts or even unknown thoughts during meditation or dreams. We have accumulated over many lives our impressions and they take time to be washed out.
6. After reading the Rev Master's words over and over again, the meditation on the heart is becoming natural and effortless without having to concentrate on the heart. Although mundane thoughts keep going by, they do not disturb me.
Mundane invariably relates to the first 3 Kosas and please note there is nothing wrong about them provided your mind does not run after them. We need to learn to ignore these thoughts.
7. During meditation, initially for about few minutes I usually get thoughts of what I have been doing, most of the time I try not to follow them, but some times I do go behind them unknowingly and then bring all my attention to the divine light, but whenever I get thoughts of devotion, service, or any good thoughts, may be I consciously go behind that. All these I am aware for about few minutes but later I just get absorbed or some times I know there were thoughts but really cannot recollect them. Throughout the meditation, usually I feel the vibrations and calmness and the calmness continues even after.
That is good. As you progress you will find many feelings and thoughts emerging and the various centres becoming active. Patience and perseverance are the sure means for success in any field.
8. Just after starting the meditation most times I get thoughts from the past