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Please do not use wrong words. We are grateful to the Master and that is about it; thanking is a word of the lower order plane.
9. But with respect to the orientation to the Master, I acutely feel the need to improve my inner condition with a deep urge to feel the Oneness with Master’s consciousness. Master is now perceived as consciousness rather than person. There is lot of inner restlesslessness and I understand that without the blessings and support of the Master it is impossible to improve further.
Support of the Master is always there it is only our grace to His work that is lacking.
10. With a sincere prayer, I place before you all blemishes in character and seek your kind blessings for overcoming them.
My blessings are there. I add Masters blessings are also there. But you seem to lacking your own blessings.
11. During and after sathsang or sitting I usually feel presence of Master. But I can't stay in that state (condition) a long time. So day after day meditations are less deep with more and more thought untill next satsangh. The consequence is I am not in the constant remembrance in all my daily activities. I observe two main causes: at first, I adopt the condition of every place where I go and of every body I meet. When I become aware of what happen I dont know how to come back to His presence (to a good condition). The second reason is I suddenly forget Master, and I think to myself (my problem, my solution, my emotion etc). In that two cases I loose the condition of the meditation and I can’t find it anymore alone. I always need help of my trainer. Do I have to do (think, feel) something more than the sadhana to be more oriented to Master in my daily life?
These are all problems of sadhana and were explained in our books. Briefly to expect to be aware of the presence of Master all the time is not proper. We have many things to do and therefore we can only be discharging our duties as a matter of service to the Master. In that way we can be in the thought of the Master. It is necessary that we should develop an attitude of being in the company of persons who think of the divine. When we are not in such a company we must cultivate the habit of trying to see the Master in all: this will




























































































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