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help and assistance you have that in plenty. Make haste before it is too late and gird up your loins.
7. Generally calm and peaceful but occasionally tend to flare up when contested by other family members. Basically I am still not rid of my tendency of belittling or even invalidating others & thus invite such situations of disharmony.
When you know your defects you should strive hard to get rid off them. If that is not found effective then you should pray before bed time to Master repenting for the defect and resolve not to commit such mistakes and also seek forgiveness. You can not get rid off anything simply because you wish you should make determined efforts in that direction.
8. More time spent praying HIM to make me eligible to attain my Goal of having complete oneness with HIM.
Read the chapter on Faith in the book of Reality at Dawn to understand more on this subject. All are eligible to realise but few are determined. To get determined is the duty of the aspirant and seeking help of Master in this aspect serves no useful purpose. It is one of the notions we have got from our ritualistic tradition. Better develop faith in yourself first.
9. Morning Mediations: But the days I was able to do it there was a feeling of presence of MASTER, absorption, vibration, deep quiet and being unmindful of the thoughts arising during meditation.
Good but Delhi is far off as the saying goes. Perseverance in the path is the method and determination is your instrument.
10. There was regular taunting from relatives and wife. As I am not known to adhere to anything for long, keeping up serious practice that our system requires became more difficult.
One has to go through these taunts and rebukes when one chooses to tread a path that is less trodden. That is a part of sadhana. Surely you require courage and determination and that you will have in plenty when you trust in the Master and his path.
11. I am unable to tolerate my own spiritual indiscipline and I have failed to