Page 174 - Three Truths - Trillion Doubts - Volume -II

It is all about self praising. Unless you come out of the thinking that you know everything and what you do is correct always such progress in humility cannot be achieved. You may think what ever you like but the fact remains that you are attached to dhana, dhara and putra. Do not confuse the concept of trusteeship to do anything with these attachments in the manner in which you have.
4. So far during meditations/satsangs whenever I felt expanded, I used to enjoy the physical sensations. Now I understand that it is expansion of consciousness and an opportunity for us to live in upper plane, I feel gratitude with humility. These days I feel I am knowing about our system with a fresh start and a new understanding.
It is good that you understand that the expansion that we talk about is expansion in consciousness and not anything connected with the physical. Learning is a never ending process and those who continue to learn are embodiments of humility-one of the essential characteristics of a good sadhaka.
5. I have been regular with the point A and bedtime prayer. There has been some improvement but still I see lot of room to grow in this aspect.
Humility is a virtue that develops after a lot of repentance which itself is caused by the awareness of our misdeeds. Give more importance to the night time prayer.
6. On observation, I had been doing sadhana most of the times in a mechanistic way than with my heart into it. The love and devotion part of it was way below what is required, if not zero. I have been trying to make amends over the past one month.
What were you doing and that is important to note than whether it is mechanical or otherwise. You neither state the problem nor the solution you have applied. What is this type of report and what am I supposed to say on that. You make a stupid statement that your love to Master is about Zero. Do you think that is humility; I consider it height of arrogance.
7. Have been regular attending Satsanghs. Feeling deep silence. Once the feeling that I should fall at everybody’s feet was there for quite some time, felt very humble.
Humility arises only when one understands the lapses, repents, seeks