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I have been suffering from hypertension and diabetes for over 3 and a half decades and I never found my health to be a reason not to meditate or pray. As a matter of fact I always felt that I should pray and meditate more lest I may be passing through the last day. Viveka really means that we can never postpone or ignore our duties to the divine. I am giving my case as an example but only to stress that what is possible for me should be possible for you too.
7. Whatever may be the case I should continue with my sadhana seriously. I should always maintain the idea “There is something beyond and beyond” in my mind and avoid feeling complacent.
It is fine that elementary viveka is developing.
Vairagya
1. Another observation during the meditation: I saw a dead body in two occasions (I remember those were sittings). This was a male dead body, floating in the bed of a sea and its hands were tied behind with a thick chain. This dead body was in Green (rotten and fungus all over). Since it has come into my thoughts twice, I am a bit skeptical and want to know what this means could be.
This vision of ‘dead body’ also is indication of Vairagya that is getting matured.
2. I remind myself about Master during leisure time and think of him but I do not automatically feel the presence of Master in heart and maintain that feeling during leisure time. I felt that there is a liking disposition to be in the company of abhyasi brothers compared to the family members and relations. Sometimes there is a general likeness to be alone and being with myself.
All these are very good symptoms of the mature viveka and Vairagya. Be grateful to the Master.
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