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You get help not in your terms but in the terms and conditions of the Master. First let your sadhana come to some perfection before you think of serving of the Master better than what you are doing. The circumstances in your life are not as bad as I have in many other cases where their lot is pretty bad. Learn to be grateful to Master and develop Trpti in life.
8. Have contentment materially, but in spirituality have discontentment.
You have got in spiritual life as stage where you were given the opportunity to serve others. You think it as a small condition due to your greed. Change this attitude and learn to be grateful to Master. We reap what we sow in material life.
More on Contentment:
1. I am happy to note that you feel more contentment in life. “Trpti” is one of the jewels in spiritual life to be picked up early and I am happy about this development in you. Whether you pray or meditate or attending to cleaning always keep the thought of the Master who is the real guru for all of us. Our own efforts are mostly a routine or a ritual but by remembering the goal always we maintain ourselves in the dynamic mode and progress even in fractions of seconds.
2. Keep contentment as the minimum goal and things will improve on all fronts.
Viveka
1. I am determined to reach the goal in this life. I am not postponing anything nowadays. I started remaining silent and concentrated on my actions outside of sadhana. What is that I am doing outside of sadhana? What is my level of orientation? What are my lapses? What are my holdings? Am I following the role of Abyasi as per expectations of Rev Master? Am I following Rev Master by thought, by word (speech) and by deed(action)? Many of my blemishes got exposed in the introspection.
This is really a great change and may this improve further. This is how we get stabilised in the condition of Viveka.