Page 228 - Three Truths - Trillion Doubts - Volume -II

If your sadhana is regular and you feel calm what is that you expect and where is the deficiency? Learn contentment and get rid off greed then the goal is very near you and where else is the goal than the heart in which you meditate?
3. Attitude: By the grace of the Master and your guidance peace and calmness have increased. Feelings of doership are reducing and dependency on Master is increasing.
Happy to note the improvements in your condition and the development of santushti and dependency to a greater extent.
4. Felt deep contentment and silence. Sometimes felt empty and reverence for Master.
This is a good sign of spiritual progress. Contentment or Santushti is the human etiquette to be learnt by all.
5. In the month of Jan, felt very light and happy. Tried to ignore thoughts and be in thought of Master. After meditation, felt happy and determination to be in thought of Master always. In the month of Feb felt absorbed, deep silence and calmness. Lately I am reveling in lot of family conflict thoughts. I need to sit with proper orientation before meditation.
Glad to note the condition of Santushti and that is human etiquette. You also know the problem and solution; all that remains is to implement the same. The remembrance of the Master is all consuming and once that is developed there remains little to be done afterwards.
6. General observations: I am happy and feeling balanced most of the time. Though I am getting disturbed at times I am able to get over it quickly. During last month there was a disturbance in my health. I continued to do my sadhana but it was not upto my satisfaction.
Expectations and judgements about the meditations are not good etiquette. It is what the Master grants and one should be happy and content with what is given.
7. At present I feel I have no purpose in life except serve the Master but due to various circumstances in day to day life I am not able to put my feelings into practice. I feel dejected for this helpless condition and with your benign grace and support I shall overcome all these obstacles.