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2. These days I feel simply content and happy. If any sudden situation is happening which makes me feel irritated / disturbed for sometime, the thought that ‘may be this is for my good’, ‘may be this is how Rev. Master wants it’ is keeping me at ease and calm.
It is good you feel so: that is a mark of the real Viveka that has developed in you. This conviction and contentment are really the pillars of spiritual life.
3. General condition: I feel lot of calmness and happiness in my heart especially after meditation. There is a confidence and sincerity and a sense of understanding towards life. I also feel a sense of enthusiasm for leading a spritual life.
This is a very good sign of development of Viveka and with assiduous practice you will gain the same fully.
4. Attitude: Have been thinking of discipline and have resolved not to postpone anything. Have been successful to about 40%. I feel happy for this change coming in because it is relieving me of a lot of load, which I used to carry earlier.
It is not an attitude; it is a state. I am happy you are developing some Viveka. No one postpones work when he knows everything is transient.
5. I went on a vacation for 6 days. During these days, I could not do sadhana. Other days I was regular. I start about 5:45AM.
When on vacation if you can forget to attend to the duty of divine it only shows your priorities. You do everything else during vacation but somehow give a good bye to the needs of your own soul. That is the viveka you have.
6. During the last few months, I have felt physically and mentally drained out and one of the reasons for lack of regularity and enthusiasm was due to low physical energy levels. After a recent health checkup I found that the B.P was not in control for the last few months. With the change of medicine and higher dose as suggested by Doctor, I am feeling much better and with this there is improvement in my compliance to daily practices. I wish to put forward that morning meditation and night prayer were effected much than other practices.