Page 45 - Three Truths - Trillion Doubts - Volume -II

The dream like state relates to apprehension that some one may harm you and you are not sure about it. Best thing is to ignore this dream like states or treat it as a part of bhog.
49. Individual sittings are of immense help. Individual sittings have helped me constantly orient. But many a times I have been unable to answer the question -how did you feel. It feels I am sitting and that's it. Sometimes however I am lucky to notice some feeling.
When you find time read about the nature of Pranahuti and its effects so that you can articulate better.
50. Felt settled, on one occasion gentle & on another intense cleaning. In one sitting felt circular motion in anti-clockwise & then sustained clock-wise spinning.
I do not understand what you mean by anti clockwise and clock wise spinning. Were you moving like that physically? You may kindly read the instructions for maintaining the diary in our Diary and be clear as to what you want to express. You should note the psychological conditions and not bother about the physical.
51. Felt deep cleaning followed by calm and then another cycle of cleaning & calm. Thoughts of Master & goal. Felt anti-clockwise rotation in heart.
Did you clarify the position with the trainer? Imaginations can be dangerous if not checked at the proper time. Nothing rotates in the heart as you state-please meditate as advised.
52. During the sitting given by you, I was crying all along like a small infant crying to his mother and felt quite light after having poured out my inadequacies in life.
Emotions overwhelm when the heart is not able to take the feelings fully. As we progress in the path the capacity of the vessel increases.
53. The experiences that I have during various sitting and satsangs are varied sometimes a lot of confusing thoughts or some fear of uncertainty but some other times so amount of settledness.
Your diary is not giving any scope for me to understand your actual problem.