Page 119 - Three Truths - Trillion Doubts - Volume -II

19. But the pain at times still comes back. I tried to think this is the way to undergo some samskaras. But when I was going through the past two months diary and the imperiences now, I felt I was lost and know where to start again.
Not clear to me. We are not lost at any time in the path as our connection to the Master is very strong and your experiences confirm that. There is no question of starting again-you have been moving steadily and this shall continue in the remembrance of the Master.
20. Sometimes I seem to be saying 'where art thou Master' and seem to hear 'where art thou brother'.
That is really good; the inner conscience has started expressing itself. Coupled with the crying that you have it only shows your nearness to the Master.
21. Some difficulties faced in day to day activities and with attitudes.
This is the problem of Ego. What are the great attitudes that are in conflict in home atmosphere? Most of them border on silliness.
22. I had a repeated thought connected with a relative for some days during meditation and at times during day. Though it’s very trivial, since the remarks were made by an abhyasi with out any truth, it was tough to accept/ignore.
If it is easy we will not call that sadhana. As you the remarks were made by an abhyasis take it as a blessing of the Master in which case acceptance or rejection are not the choices.
23. I have been contemplating as to how my condition has become somewhat heavy in the recent past. The following is the daily pattern and routine of my Life. (a) On completion of the construction of additional accommodation, I have now totally returned to my normal living state. (b) Mentally, I have again started visualization of complex issues affecting our National Security and our Vital Interests and seeking some solutions as can be discerned by me. This is taking much of my leisure and spare time. (c) I have been requested to take upon the responsibilities of our Large Society and this involves involvement in many mundane issues, taking its own toll. (d) Financial Management consequent to the completion of the