Page 129 - Three Truths - Trillion Doubts - Volume -II
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Self Evaluation
1. I am having some feeling that I am tending to enjoy the calmness rather than having a fire to progress spiritually. It was like taking rest. I am not contemplating on the feelings. This is resulting in poor dairy writing on a daily basis. I am only noting down the general condition. I could identify this only over a period of time. Why am I not able to identify this immediately is a question that comes up in me.
Peace, quiet, calmness are all divine blessings and your attitude that you are enjoying them and that you need to go further through the Fire (perhaps you mean aspiration) is only being ungrateful for the blessing. You do not get things you imagine as right or proper. The path is well laid and you need to understand it better and that is possible only by serious study of the literature. If you are not writing diary properly it is because your laziness and also due to not finding anything exciting (which is sought for). Read more about diary writing.
2. I have not submitted my dairy for the last 4 months. I submit my apology and I seek your pardon for this big lapse. I will not allow this big lapse to recur. Whatever maybe the problems I faced in the last 4 months, there is NO excuse for this lapse.
Whether you send the reports or not I request you to attend to sadhana properly and write your diary regularly.
The feelings were subtle and I procrastinated in reviewing them, for I thought there is not much to observe. I apologize for this thinking and the delay thereof in sending the report. When I did review, I found a pattern that a particular band of feeling stayed prominent for some time and gradually shift is observed to a different feeling. Please guide where appropriate.
You have realized your mistake and perhaps there is no need for any observation on this point. But one point I would like to bring to your notice is that progress is a continuous feature of sadhana and by consciously observing the same we give it a greater impetus. The change may appear very little and many times insignificant but if recorded honestly, at a later date when reviewed give more




























































































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