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That is fine. But what are the nature of thoughts and feelings when you meditate on the divine light? They give clues to your condition.
38. POINT B and Morning meditation: Sir, during meditation I have noticed that the orientation towards Divine light without luminosity is continuous and centered and thoughts arising are not disturbing the orientation.
This is a happy thing to note and we should accept everything as a gift of the Divine.
39. Sir, in some meditations I felt that I am sitting in the company of Master through the meditation and feeling the presence of Master; Sir, feeling that Master presence exists in all and we should see Master in all; Sir, in some meditations I felt a feeling that I am waiting helplessly for Master; Sir, feeling of that relations and things are transitory in nature; Sir, feeling that I should not cling to worldly attachments and it should be only with Master; Sir, felt lightness and emptiness in some occasions.
If they are your feelings it is very good. If they are what you call attitudes then it is only preparation and not condition. Do not confuse with words and their meanings as miscommunication is possible then.
40. Trying to hold the thought of Light without Luminosity as far as possible. Still to achieve.
You say your compliance to the commandment 1 is good and yet say that you are trying to hold the thought of Light without Luminosity. Were you at any point of time asked to hold that thought. Were you not told repeatedly that you should give suggestion that the Light is there and proceed with the meditation. If you do not leave the odd notions of achieving something and yield to the presence of the divine light within you there is little help that you can get in this system.
41. During morning meditations, I am experiencing inner silence. The attitude is one of natural inclination with a feeling of dedication to the Master. But on the surface several thoughts are there which are mostly pertaining to mundane activities. The fleeting thoughts appear not to be in my conscious control. Earlier the intensity was more but now it has slightly reduced. I am not able to know the reason.