Page 197 - Three Truths - Trillion Doubts - Volume -II

1. Some days there is a feeling of dependency with no worry. However, on some days there is a feeling of despondence that I have not been able to improve as needed.
Never become despondent or gloomy. You have the company of Master and why should you feel despondent? You talked of Contentment earlier and it is better to reside in that plane.
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1. Every person is a divine expression and it is for us to see divinity in all rather than point out what we consider as blemishes. Despair and despondency are poisons in spiritual life and in fact it means questioning the wisdom of the divine will.
Brooding
1. A feeling of lightness and like something is changing inside my mind and more tendency to introspection.
Introspection is good but it should be guided by parameters that are valid to this system and not alien. In the name of introspection we should also not encourage ourselves to the tendency of brooding because that is harmful in spirituality.
2. There have been occasions where certain thoughts and feelings as they pass, in meditation and other times of lower nature are uncomfortable. I have however started to feel that I am just an observer, like a container in which these experiences which are because of past samskaras are coming to pass. I am learning to bear with them as they pass trying not to be judgmental but at the same time not giving much attention to them in the sense of identifying with those thoughts. On these lines, I felt your thoughts on the recent seminar very relevant and very helpful.
Do not yield to the tendency of brooding; instead try to remember Him as much as you can.
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