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Silence is not a matter of enjoyment. In fact when you enjoy there is no silence. There is no better service to the Divine than offering the prayer as prescribed by the Master at 9 P.M. Do that assiduously and you will feel the benefit to you and the world yourself.
20. I have mixed experiences during the Satsanghs. Some times absorbed and in some times disturbed from thoughts.
You may please be patient and learn over a period of time to receive what is granted during Satsanghs. Anticipations are not good in sadhana.
21. In reviewing my diary, I recall another experience I'd like to share with you. I woke up one morning by hearing "That's All" --like the end of a Satsangh. I'm not sure who said it, but I immediately put my hands together in prayer. It felt like I had spent the entire night in Satsangh with God.
It is a great blessing from the Masters of the Order. It is a definite indication of the presence of Dr.K.C.V. who always concluded the satsanghs with either “That is all” or “Om Tat Sat”. I congratulate you for gaining his blessings in this manner also.
22. When I attended satsangh yesterday I felt very happy, sympathetic and pity towards others and a feeling to think beyond self.
It is true that we get thoughts some times very good some times ordinary and certain other times those which are not good. But our attitude should be to ignore all of them and continue to meditate on the divine light. In continuation, it is true many times many of our inner condition gets purified and getting purged out of thoughts of disharmony we feel relieved. But this is only a by product and
the main thing is something different.
23. For the past one month I am feeling slight jerks during meditation and satsangs. feel utmost respect, discipline and steadiness during satsangs.
Jerks it has been clarified are due to the influence of the Pranahuti and indicates some loosening of minor knots of the psychic apparatus.
24. During Satsanghs, felt engulfing and enveloped with Divine Grace. Felt extremely respectful and gratitude. Felt like saying prayer for everyone instead of I. Felt tranquility like a serene calmness. One day I felt Aavedana