Page 50 - Three Truths - Trillion Doubts - Volume -II

Your report does not mention about the Satsanghs during Masters Birthday celebrations separately. Please kindly observe the flow on those special days and you will understand their importance.
10. In Sunday satsanghs, I feel absorbed for some time with time lags in between. Why in parts is not known? I am placing this point before the Master at Bed time prayer. Earlier even this much of absorbency was not there on Sunday Satsanghs.
It is not proper to await any condition. Learn to wait without any expectations.
11. During Satsangh, felt that I was in His Company and I was running after the thoughts. Felt guilt as I have not utilized His Company properly.
Good realisation but then repentance is what is required and not a feeling of guilt.
12. I decided to attend the evening satsangs regularly at your place. But by the time I reach your place from office every time it is becoming around 6:20-6:25pm and I am thinking it might be too late to attend the Satsang.
You can come everyday for evening Satsanghs and it should not be problem for you to come in time provided you make up your decision. Doubt about our capacities to do our duty is simple spiritual disease and you can get rid off it by being more conscious of the need for spiritual hygiene.
13. Satsangs: Feel cleaning amidst enveloping Silence. The Silence is felt like a huge void in the midst of which my thoughts and disturbances come and go like fire crackers and at times get lost in the Silence. After coming out of Satsang, His consciousness felt as purity and simple silence.
That is good. Try to feel His grace more.
14. Have been regular in attending the satsanghs. Deep silence was observed on a few days. Presence of master was observed on a couple of days. Once childhood memories flashed.
Make it a point to write only positive things and improve on that. I am sure you do not try to study the gutter but only clean it.