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holding that hand.You seem to be crying within for more entertainment and enjoyment stating that you are desperate to become free from them. There is little goal clarity in such thinking. There is no support for sloth and indolence. Everyone gets what he deserves.
34. I feel time is running and I am lagging behind it and I feel the rush but could not do much.
This is just a statement of greed and nothing else. You have to do sadhana as prescribed and then only you can get the result. I think you should shed your laziness and sloth and work hard towards your goal. Your statement also questions the capacity of the Master whether you realise the lapse of not.
35. In the last three months, my orientation and sadhana have varied a lot. Some days there was high orientation and I was sincere in sadhana, and other days I did not feel like doing sadhana, it has also largely been because of my sloth.
When the cause is known we should try to find out the remedy also. This sloth can be overcome only by determination and that comes from the love we have for the goal and Master.
36. During the month the state of mind has generally been calm peaceful and non-impulsive. A sort of general disinterestedness and sloth also prevailed.
Laziness is never a virtue. Corrective methods for this can be only discipline; if you did not have it all along these years it naturally requires more determination and love for the goal.
37. I feel highly concerned by the evil guidance of human kind and by the destruction of life on Earth, which I have seen and felt much more clearly here. Protection of life is more in my prayers than evolution of humanity.
We can protect and defend our human nature only when we destroy the animal in us and cooperate with the Master in the process of divinization of man. It is good nature that is real life. What is there if we save life if that is unicellular?
38. Some anxiety is there sometimes concerning the problems of daily life, but it is more rarefied than it used to be. I just follow the directions and try