Page 216 - Three Truths - Trillion Doubts - Volume -II

only by yielding to the divine.
Due Attachment
1. I feel calm and oriented to Rev Master. Only the very recent happening comes as thoughts without effect on feelings. I could observe brightness from heart to top of forehead accompanied by emptiness and sometimes blankness. A uniform feeling is persisting. Sometimes surge of feelings of determination and strong attachment to Rev Master was observed. There were times I faced some difficulty during meditation. I have summed up the difficulties in later part of this email.
I am happy that you are developing proper viveka and Vairagya and once the attachment to the Master is deep rooted the tree of spirituality will grow naturally.
2. "Since the begining, after sittings with you, I always feel the necessity of lying down after. I thought it was perhaps a lack of sleep; but for example today, I had slept enough but I still needed to lie after the sitting. It is as if I needed to "diggest" something very subtle; although I don't feel many things in particular during the sittings, I can feel their effects as it is difficult for me to go back to material matters. They are somehow "agressive" to me; I’ve got to do violence to my feelings to go back to this materiality. Very often, the day before the sitting, and also the day after, I can feel this particular state. I wanted to share this with you because I wonder what it means. if it means something.
The purpose of spiritual training is to move nearer the Divine/God. Silence and deep quiet are the sure signs of our going nearer that state. Of course we should not confuse torpor with such a state. Since your stabilisation process in the Brahmand is going on smoothly there will be a reluctance to the mundane and material worldly matters. This is a sure sign of the development of attachment to the divine and having only due attachment to other things. To come out of this condition you may not like as that nearness to the state of silence is dearer to our psyche. Be thankful to Master for this blessing.
3. Dis-interestedness in other worldly things has improved.