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11. Bedtime Prayer: I continue to improve on this aspect. I keep praying till I get a calm satisfaction of submitting everything to Rev Master. Many times I read EVENT HORIZON before bedtime prayer. I get a push to submission after reading.
It is good you read the book Event Horizon and learn some lessons from that book. To pray naturally should not include expectation or demand and note this point carefully.
12. Bed Time Prayer: Still struggling to get into supplicant mood and pray for His forgiveness for my mistakes.
If you feel that you are not a supplicant what is the other attitude you have? Avoid intellectual analysis of sadhana.
13. Quality of my bed time prayer is improving and I started feeling the essence of this prayer now. I also experienced His responses for my real cry. A couple of times, in spite of my sincere attempts, I felt sleepy and cut short my prayer. This is true particularly if I take my dinner after 9 PM prayer.
Contradictory sentences. What you mean by the sentences that you experienced His responses for your real cry is not clear to me. What is the prayer and how necessary it is for Him to interfere are all matters for deep contemplation. I think YOU MUST READ THE SECOND COMMANDMENT MORE CAREFULLY to understand the meaninglessness of your statement.
14. I am offering bedtime prayers regularly but sometimes-in ritualistic way. Due to tiredness sometimes I feel sleepy instead of being attentive.
Yes. We have no time to pray that being so because the bed is too near! Pray at least to the Lord of Laziness to spare you and perhaps he will hear you and spare you. Dear boy, sloth and laziness is never wished away. They need to be resisted with will and for that God does not help as it is our duty.
15. Sir, now days during bedtime prayer initially I am trying to feel the meaning of the prayer and slowly I am feeling that for everything I should seek the help of Master. Sir, I am becoming helpless as I am not able to find the attitudes which are hindering the spirituality. I am feeling like repentance for known and unknown problems of attitudes. Now days I am not feeling like getting up for sleeping immediately which used to happen