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It is your sloth and indolence and lack of determination. How to overcome Master himself has written and that is printed in every quarterly magazine we publish. I also donot understand the connection between dependency and subduedness. Dependency on Master is an early state of consciousness in the path. Abhudiyat is a rarified position of a competent person being subdued similar to Hanuman.
21. Point A Meditation & Bed time Prayer: After 11.30 PM every day not able to do very regularly as feeling tired by that time. Could do only on some days.
The universal excuse of not attending to prayer. Kindly understand that this is the corner stone on which we can decide the boundary of our petty self. The most important commandment from my sadhana point of view is the 10th Commandment.
22. Doing regularly. Feeling of submissiveness during the Prayer. Feel that there is lot of preparation required to do bedtime prayer. Sir -I must say that, getting into the attitude of real crying is happening very rarely during the bed time prayer.
First learn to pray then the question of advanced conditions in prayer will come on its own. If you are not able to cry it is because you are having a fairly inflated ego which does not permit you to accept your faults and lapses. But all that is a matter of maturity in prayer.
23. Have been regular and sincere in bedtime prayer.
The lessons of repentance and seeking forgiving is not all that easily learnt nor can you summarily dismiss the same in a single sentence. You need not write everything in the report but then your style of writing betrays the shallowness of your prayer. When you pray and how long you pray and what you were doing before prayer-all these count.
24. There is a considerable improvement. On most of the days I am able to get up with the thought of master.
What is this getting up with the thought of the Master; is it in the morning?
25. Have missed on some occasions but after improvement in health

























































































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